strong?

when i was at physical therapy today, nathanial was showing me some more exercises to do on my bed. as i was doing them, his voice sounded honestly surprised as he said to me, "wow! you're strong!" when i was laying on the bed switching which legs i bent to my stomach, i'm not sure if he was surprised because he was like everyone else who i work with that underestimates me or if he was just surprised that i could do it so easily- period. i'm really thinking about telling kevin that i'm going to be discontinuing going to the courage center because of therapists like him who don't want to seem to see me take the step in ultimately losing my wheelchair altogether because they know (and they're right) that i'll stop going to the courage center- therefore making them lose money. i think that i kinda hinted at this to my aunt debbie yesterday when she was at my place giving me my birth certificate and i told her, "i don't think they wanna see me lose my chair because that would lose money if i stopped going to the courage center.." and my aunt said, "exactly." so she's on the same page as me.